i feel like im going insanely crazy...
the colour red just reminds me of blood... i wished i had a knife to kill
stab each one of your hearts and let the blood flow out.
i know, i hve sinned. Just by thinking of such things ive sinned..
there's so many things that ive done, which cause me to sin.
still, i really wonder whether i am forgiven spiritually.
i know he loves me, but i am not ready to open up to him yet.
No matter how many times he called out to me i just keep avoiding.
sometimes... i just wish i could just accept him into my life... so that i dont have to run in circles anymore.. so that i know where i am suppose to head to. the purpose of my existence.
yet... i just cant do it..
sigh..
can i just lay down on the greenery?
and declare to myself that ive really really really given up who i really am.
there's no means of persuing who i am anymore.
im nobody who means nothing to somebody..
dreamer's world.. dreamer's music..
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