I am at a loss for words for the moment. Im so upset... sometimes i wish i was never born on Earth. I questioned the lord about the things that people are doing around me... then i realized i was feeling insecured, that I dont trust my own self and my own capabilities. But how can i trust my own capabilities when they are being stolen from me? How can i even do my best when people use what i am doing, made it better and now, my own work looks like shit! Why do i have to put through other's shit that they have gone through? Risk my own life streak just for others to climb above of me and take advantage. I thought I trusted you. Time after time you stab me so hard in the back but never once ive died. WHY dont you just have a real knife? So that when you should be to stab me, i would be long gone dead. I dont have to face all of that life's suffering. Sometimes i just wished i had a knife to stab myself dead. Just... kill me. there's no need for me to be alive on this world either.....
dreamer's world.. dreamer's music..
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