I am so dissapointed with my ownself.
What have i done to acheive what i said i would?
heh, to show everyone that i will top the class, to show that them even without them i will survive. What has become of me? making the same mistake all over again and again, failing to see that i have walked down the wrong path.
sigh..
say no more, i am as hopeless as i am.
Inside me is a bottle of hate, ever growing. no matter how many times i tell myself control your own emotions, dont let them eat you up. It just fails to happen. When i think, everything becomes possible. Even my dreams tell me that i am angry, i could kill. Why should i not be afraid of myself? I dont wanna turn another person into a drone like me. Filled with the emotions of hate, Just because they were selfish they made me this way, id take my revenge on them, making them into who i am. I dont want to ruin another person's life.
Sometimes, i wished i could just own a car, turn on the carbon monoxide gas and just die feeling asphyxiated. Dying without knowing, just slowly falling into deep sleep and never to wake...
dreamer's world.. dreamer's music..
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