can i just hate all of you?
i am never out of this pit hole no matter what i do, i still end up getting stuck in there
WHY am i feeling this way like Why?
am i suppose to feel that way?
Ive been blocking everyone outta my life including the thoughts of wanting some sense of security. i thought i was going somewhere. but NO!!!!
why have i become so soft? i feel like ive failed. ive failed my strong front. failed to maintain that walll i built over the years.
Its like, at times i really want someone whom i can talk to. like be by my side...
this loneliness is really eating me up. sometimes i dont get the attention i want i start to get fustrated. ITS ANNOYING. to be fustrated over nothing.over something that other people cannot help. and then the only thing i can turn to is screaming otherwise crying or hiting my fist against the wall, hard enough to make me wanna stop. to chill the tension.
its like the world without music, total silence. it KILLS... KILLS a human, making them go crazy. u know crazy... really crazy crazy.
why am i born this way?
why am i even on earth..
i really dont deserve to even be alive...
WHY??
dreamer's world.. dreamer's music..
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